Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!!

Sorry everybody it has taken me way to long to post another update. So I guess I have to catch everyone up on whats been up in my world. I've had another two treatments of chemo since the last time I updated them and am still handling this Drug quite well. I am still feeling really good so that makes me happy. I went to New York with my sister few weeks ago and it was wonderful. Cold but wonderful. We woke up the first morning we were there and 6 inches of snow were on the ground. It had been a long time since I had seen that much snow. We had a great time wandering around the city and just hanging out. We made it to a great Broadway show called Spring Awakening. All in all it was a great great time. As for Christmas we did our traditional Christmas Eve dinner at my Grammy's house where she cooks her amazing tacos. Everyone should get the chance to try her tacos you would be amazed. It was a great time spent with family and my nephews first Christmas. It was great. I was up early on Christmas morning to fly out to Hawaii with the Franks Family. The flight was awesome because a lady traded me her first class seat for my coach seat so she could sit next to her husband. God sure does hook me up with great gifts. We arrived yesterday evening and it is gorgeous here. We are staying on the North Shore of Oahu and get to listen to waves crashing on the beach just steps from the back porch. I hope everyone had a great Blessed Christmas and has a Happy New Year too! Wait...I almost Forgot I am beginning to get pictures online go to http://picasaweb.google.com/cartwrightjake and check them out!!!

God Bless
Jake

Greatest trip ever..but so good to be home!!!

I am back home and it is great to be here. The trip was better than I ever could have imagined. I went to London where we saw all the tourist stuff like Buckingham Palace and the Tower of London. From there we went through Wales and over to Dublin via the high speed ferries across the the Irish Sea. There we just hung out and saw a few sights. From there we went o Manchester England where I got to take the tour of Old Trafford, or for those who aren't soccer savvy the home of Manchester United my favorite team. Form there we went to Edinburgh Scotland, where we saw Edinburgh castle, and some other palace. After there it was back to London to catch a plane over to Barcelona. There we got a little much needed rest and caught a Barcelona FC game, it was sooo awesome. From there it we went down to Valencia to catch a little sun on the Mediterranean Sea it was a very beautiful town. The in was on to France by way of the sleeper train which was an experience in itself. We spent about 20 minutes in Paris before heading to Bayeux home to Omaha Beach and the American cemetery for those who died in the D-Day invasions. This was probably my favorite part of the whole trip it was so nice there and just a powerful place. From there we went on into the Netherlands just to say we went to another country, and then on into Germany. We spent 3 days in Trier at a Family friends house that was built in 1729 it was very beautiful but cold. We saw alot of Ancient Roman ruins in the city and went to wonderful Christmas festival. The it was on to Frankfurt for the final two night nothing really to note about there we were pretty tired by that point. After the 11 hour flight back I was so ready to back to see all my family and friends. I am working getting all the pictures downloaded and onto a page that everyone can go to and see them.

I had another round of chemo today and will have another one next week. I will have some scans as well right after the first of the year. So maybe we will have some news around that time.

I hope everyone is doing great, and is having a wonderful holiday season.

God Bless
Jake

We made it to Germany

We made it to our final country. We have been having so much fun. Since leaving Valencia we went back to Barcelona and caught an overnight train into Paris. The overnight train was fun with the sleeper cabins. Once we got to paris at 9am the next morning we caguht another train out of paris to Bayeux, France, in Normandy. We stayed in a nice little hotel about 7km from the d-day beaches. We caught a taxi out to the american cemetary overlooking Omaha Beach, it was a powerful sight seeing all those white crosses prefectly lined up. We walked down to the beach and saw some german fortifications that were really neat. WAlking back up from the beach was tough I cant imagine running upo it with people shooting at you. The next day we went back to paris and hopped on a train through Brussels and on into the Nethelands, Amsterdam, it was really nice there with all their canals running through the city it was a nice mix of old and new. The following morning we hopped on another train and headed for Treir, Germany where one of my sisters friends has a 1700's house that is amazing. We will spend two more night here then on to Frankfurt for two nights then back home to Texas. It has been such a great exprience and I thank god for this opportunity. See you all in a few day.

God Bless
Jake

In Valencia

We arrived in Valencia, Spain this afternoon after 2 days in Barcelona. Our hotel is an apartment which we got a heck of deal on and is cheaper and nicer then any place we have stayed thus far. It is beautiful here in spain and cant wait now to move and see what the rest of Europe is like. I got to go to a FC Barcelona game last night and it was the highlight for me so far getting to watch one of the best soccer teams in the world win 3-0. We are having a grand ole time moving around and seeing as much as can be seen in a few weeks. We leave spain tomorrow on the overnight train into Paris. It should be cool cause we have a sleeper cabin. We are then hearding directly up to Caen in Normandy to see the D-Day beaches and musuems, I cant wait. Then back to paris and on to Belgum and the Netherlands. Hope everything is great back home.

God Bless
Jake

Now in Scotland

We made it safely back into England last night and into Manchester. We went to see Old Trafford Manchester Uniteds stadium as soon as we got into town it. We then got up this morning and went and too the tour it was amazing. Bought some good stuff in the mega store then hopped a train into Edinburgh. We will be heading back to London tomorrow night on the overnight train then getting on our flight to Spain. I am loving over here but still miss everyone back home.

God Bless
Jake

Europer is Great!!!!

I am in Ireland having a blast hope all is well back home. I will be back in England tomorrow then on to Scotland the following day.

God Bless
Jake

Anouther round another day.

I finished a second round of chemo today, I'm not sure if this drug is just soft or if my first drug was that tough. However it is I am handling this drug much much better than the last. I hardly even notice that is in my body. Whatever I don't care I just believe god is keeping me feeling good and that's enough explanation for me. I am getting prepared to leave on Sat. for Europe so I wont be posting regularly but I will do my best to get a few up while I am gone, otherwise I will probably get in trouble from a few of you regular readers wanting to know how much fun I am having. I hope everyone is having a great week.

God Bless Jake

Best Tourney Ever!!!

I want to start off by saying thank you to everyone who participated in the tournament this weekend. I was so deeply touched by the extreme show of support so many people gave to me this weekend. God has truly blessed me with so many extraordinary friends new and old. The tournament was huge 33 teams and it went amazingly well. Congrats to the F-Bombers for winning. Everything went so smoothly and we were able to raise a whole lot of money, much more than I could have ever expected. Thank you, thank you, Thank you, I cannot say it enough. I am lost as to how I can ever truly express my gratitude. A special thank you to Matt, Blake, Eric, and Ryan you all did such an amazing job putting this thing together, I LOVE YOU guys. Also I want to thank all the people who volunteered their day to Help make this go off so well there are too many to name but THANK YOU we couldn't have done this with out you. Once again thank you for everything you all made that day one which I will never forget.

God Bless
Jake

Back to Chemo :-(

I had my first round of chemo today. I think I am going to handle this drug a lot better than I did the last. Plus this drug only takes an hour to finish rather than the 3 days that the last drug took. Dr. Crim thinks based on the way I handled the last drug this one will be a relative cake walk, lets hope. I go back next wed. to get another round then I will be off until I get back from Europe. All in all though at least I have something back in my system to help hold this off.

God Bless
Jake

New Plans and Thanks To Alll!!

Well I have made some plans for now. I met Dr. Crim today for about an hour and a half. It was one of the best meetings with a Dr. that I have had thus far, we got to know each other and prayed together which was refreshing knowing that my Dr. was a true christian. I start tomorrow on a preventative treatment until after I am done with my travels. After that I will aggressively go after this cancer and do my damnedest to beat it. Until then it I trust that God will hold it off til he shows me where I need to go. I am confident that I will be shown the way I need to go.

As far as this weekend is concerned this softball tourney is a bigger than I ever imagined 33 teams signed up and it will be so much fun. I just thank god for the support that has been shown, I hope that is a reflection on the impact I have been able to make on people through this blog because that is my goal. I hope to continue to influence people in a positive manner and make this cancer a positive thing.

God Bless.
Jake

Amazing People!!

While I am still trying to decide what step to take next which should come very soon, I have been presented with some wonderful opportunities to travel by some very giving and caring people. In two weeks my uncle Kip is taking me and my best friend Kevin to Europe for a couple of weeks. It is such a beautiful gesture since it is one the place I want to see so much. A few weeks after getting back my sister is taking me to NYC for a weekend to see it at Christmas time which I think will be an awesome trip. Shortly after getting back the Franks' are taking to Hawaii with their family to de-thaw after heading to Europe and NYC in the winter. I cant even put into words how thankful I am to have such wonderful family and friends. I am so glad I get to go see these places before I get deep into another round of chemo or whichever treatment I pick.

I am getting extremely excited about the softball tournament next week I cannot wait to see everyone out there. Even if you aren't playing in it I would still love for you to come and say Hi and let me thank you all for support thus far and in the future. So I hope to see everyone out there on Sat. Have a wonderful week.

God Bless
Jake

Possible Clinical Trials

I went down to San Antonio on Monday to meet with two different research centers. The first one I met with, S.T.A.R.T., I really liked. I just got a good feeling from them and what they wanted to do. They are the type of center who are willing to think a little outside the box and not just settle on the fact there is nothing that can be done for me. They aren't saying what they have to offer will work but at least they say there is a chance and that's all I am asking for. They want to use a new drug that is not a form of chemo but is an inhibitor that binds to the cancer cell and may stop the growth, slow it down a little, kill it off, or not work at all depending on how it reacts, there are no guarantees since this is a drug being researched. I must now be selected by the pharmaceutical company to participate, and I should hear something by the end of the week.

The other research center I did not like at. They had the same outlook as the my old Dr., that the only thing that can be done is just slow it down and that's all. They were not willing to look outside that box and take a risk. I would rather at least risk failure and trust in God than not try at all. The Dr. there talked to me as if I didn't understand what I was facing. I was thinking why would I be down is S.A. wanting to try out unproven drugs if I didn't understand my cancer. So based on their outlook I ruled them out.

I have one more clinical trial to meet with this week and that is in Dallas at UTSW medical center. I will listen to what they have to say and maybe it will be good, but I think God led me to the START center for a reason so hopefully I get into that trial. I hope everyone is doing great!

God Bless
Jake

Making a difference

I want to stand on a soapbox for a little while tonight and talk about what my objective is and the point I want to make. God gives each and everyone of us a purpose and it is for us to figure out what our purpose is and to make of it what we will. You can take two paths the one he wants us to take or the other. God never gives us more than we can handle and that is why I believe I have cancer you don't, not that you all couldn't handle it but it is my burden. He knew I was going to look at this not as some would, as horrible disease, but as chance to Make a Difference. I hope, and I think have been able touch so many people in a positive manner. I hope to make a difference in peoples relationships with God first and foremost, their families, and friends. If I am able to touch one persons life then I feel I did my job. I am not done yet though I will glorify God to fullest extent of my strength and continue to fight and hope to show others that no matter the obstacle there are ways to deal with it and come out ahead no matter what the outcome is.

God Bless

Jake

What a Great Weekend! / Benefit Softball Tournament

I had a great weekend down at SHSU for the annual alumni game. I spent the weekend catching up with old friends and making new ones as well. As for the game I felt good enough to play and although loosing by a horrendous score that which I wont mention, I did score the best goal of the game. I am glad I did because I did a whole lot of trash talking before the game.

I met my new Oncologist Dr. Crim on Friday, and let me tell you he is a whole lot better than Dr. B. I felt like he actually cared about treating me rather than just the cancer. So I am happy with that and am ready to move forward.

Some of my longtime best friends are putting on a Benefit Softball Tournament for me to help raise money to continue to help me pay all my costs. Below is the information:

Jake’s Benefit Softball Tournament
Who: Friends, family, coworkers, church congregations, community members.
What: Day of softball and fun to raise money for Jake and the John J. Cartwright Medical Fund.
When: Saturday, November 10, 2007
First game to begin at 10 A.M.
Where: Lockheed Martin Recreational Association Softball Fields
3400 Bryant Irvin Rd.
Fort Worth, TX 76109
Why: We love Jake: to learn more about Jake’s battle with cancer, see http://www.jakescancerupdate.blogspot.com/
Additional Info: Asking minimum $15.00 per player donation.
Refreshments will be provided on game day for donations.
Coed teams encouraged.
Register by November 3, 2007.
May register as a team, partial team, or individuals can be placed on teams.
Checks made payable to John J. Cartwright Medical Fund, c/o
Matt Blackstock, 9904 Edmund St. Benbrook, Texas 76126
Help spread the word, tell all your friends and coworkers!
Registration contacts:
Matt Blackstock
Cell: (817) 480-9261
Email: mcblackstock@gmail.com

Blake Bozarth
Cell: (817) 688-2872
Email: Blakie85@yahoo.com

Eric Franks
Cell: (682 ) 667-2926
Email: Eric.L.Franks@LMCO.com

I hope everyone comes out and participates, I think it will be a lot of fun. Hope to see everyone there.

God Bless
Jake

Trusting in God

I am still feeling good no need to worry. For those of you who keep up with my blog and read a few day ago I mentioned Rose. She lost her fight late last night against cancer. She put up an amazing fight but God said it was her time and wanted to bring her into his kingdom. May God now look after her family in their time of need.

My family has been looking into a number of different research centers for me and in the upcoming weeks I will be meeting with a few doctors who might be able to give us a glimmer of hope outside of conventional chemo treatments. I trust in God that he will lead us to where I need to be to obtain the best treatment possible.

God Bless
Jake

Moving Forward

A lot of you are probably wonder whats coming up for now. As I said in the previous blog I am changing Dr's to one closer to where I live. I should meet with him later this week or early next week. Though will probably just say lets do some chemo to try and slow it down. Well chemo didn't seem to get things done all that great the first try so now we are going to look into alternative types of treatments. A number of people who have had similar prognosis' to mine have gone on to live for a number of years with some of these alternative treatments. So why not try some right. If you know of any programs or people that might have some knowledge to share please give them my contact info. I am not just going to sit here and wait and see what happens because it is gods hands and he will lead me to where I need to be.

The last few days have not been exactly easy, but I have some great family and friends who have been there and made these last couple days a lot fun believe it or not, they helped tremendously to keep my mind off of things. I am going to spend a lot the upcoming time doing some of things I have always wanted to do. Hopefully a little traveling and some other fun things.

I know have already asked a lot of you all, but I still have medical and living expenses to take care and more medical expenses are on the way. It is the toughest thing to do is ask for help in this way but if you can help, my family and I we will forever be grateful. You can donate to my fund by going to any Bank of America and depositing a check into the John J. Cartwright Medical Fund. The teller at any Bank of America should be able to pull up the account and deposit your donation. Make sure to tell them it is a contribution/donation fund! And please note: all donations are tax deductible! You can also mail a check directly to my sister or myself, made payable to the John J. Cartwright Medical Fund and we can deposit it for you!

God Bless
Jake Cartwright
8324 Estandarte Ct
Benbrook TX. 76126

Sarah Jung
4101 Crestview Dr.
Fort Worth TX. 76103

Not what we had hoped for :(

The results came back from my biopsy and and it wasn't what we had hoped for. The spots on my liver are indeed cancer. This means I am back in stage 4 and the outlook the Dr's have are not good. They are thinking I probably have about year left before it takes me out. It turns out the God wants me more than we thought. I'm not sure why he wants we now but I want everyone to realize there is a reason for everything and we have to trust in him that some good will come from this. I understand that this is hard to grasp but don't be mad or think this unfair cause it is part of life and I am OK with it. I'm not happy about it believe me but Ill manage.

I am moving to a new Dr. over in the Hulen area of Fort Worth to get my treatments much closer to home. I will be resuming chemo to slow the growth but that is about all they can hope for is to just slow it down. I will probably go in for one day about every 3-4 weeks. Don't worry I am still a fighter and will not give up.

This has been so tough to tell everyone y'all have stood behind me with your prayers and I know you will continue to be there for me. I don't know if I said the right things or not its tough, but please do not let this effect your faith cause mine is as strong as ever.

God Bless
Jake

Quick Update

The biopsy went well I tricked the nurse into added sedatives, I was supposed be moderately sedated but I think I was closer to heavily sedated so I happy. I don't remember a thing so that's a plus. My side is a little tender but no big deal. Hopefully they get a preliminary report done tomorrow before I go see Dr. B. Say a prayer for great results.

God Bless
Jake

Biopsy Tomorrow

I go in for my biopsy in the morning. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit nervous. I hate needles and there is going to be a good sized one jabbed into my liver. You would think by now I would be OK with them but I'm not. Anyhow I have faith that this test is going to yield the results we have been waiting for. However optimistic I am there is still that fear of the unknown, don't mistaken that for loss of faith because I assure you it is not. God has not brought us this far to let the faith or optimism waver at this point. I have found it easier to hope for the best but prepare for the worst, I guess being a realist isn't the best way sometimes, but it works for me. Pray we get the results we have been waiting for.

God Bless
Jake

Results are in....

I got the results today and we are kinda in the same boat as before. For on the cancer that was in the colon did not show up in the scans, so that is great news. However the spots that are in my liver are still a large concern. The spots actually grew again and some news have emerged as well. Dr. B is not sure what they are and isn't sure if its cancer again or if it a type of growth that closely resembles cancer on the scans. He doesn't want to get too optimistic but does say there is a possibility that it might not be a concern at all. So I am going to have a biopsy done next Wednesday to find out for sure what it is. I will have the results back the following after meeting again with Dr. B. Everyone continue to pray.

God Bless
Jake

Please Pray for Rose

I recieved a messase from a man yesterday whose daughter Rose is putting up a far greater fight than I could even imagine. I was touched very deeply after reading his blog about her. I can only pray that the way it touched me is, is even half as much as I was able to touch all of my readers. Her strength is second to none, I pray that her family and friends faith is as strong as all yours has been for me. So I beg you to read her story and pray for her as you have for me.

http://rosesosteosarcoma.blogspot.com/

God Bless
Jake

Great Trip to SHSU!

I just got back from a great weekend trip down to Sam Houston. I had a great time catching up with old friends, watched a few soccer games, and went and visited some of my old professors. I had a great time and I was to have been able to get down there.

On the cancer front I had a CT scan last Monday and I have my PET scan tomorrow. It has been a hassle to get that scan again but finally after two cancellations it should happen tomorrow. I will then be meeting with Dr. B on Friday to go over the results and see how we proceed from here. Everyone please pray this week that the scans come back clean and I can have this behind me. I hope everyone is doing great, tune back in this weekend to find out the results.

God Bless
Jake

No Need To Worry I am Grreat!

I made it back from San Diego fine a few weeks ago now. I am moved into my place in Benbrook, I will put the new address at the bottom of this post. I went to see Dr. B two weeks ago he really didn't have too much to day but that he is very happy to see that I have put my weight back on. He said he wouldn't have an update for me until after my next set of scans which we are in the process of scheduling. I have been feeling so good of late. I have been so active that I don't make it online much anymore sorry about that I apologize. But any way I will try to get back on to update after I see my Dr. again next fri.

God Bless

Jake

NEW ADDRESS
8324 Estandarte Ct.
Benbrook TX 76126

I Love San Diego!

I made it to San Diego safe and sound. I am having a great time out here with the McMullins. The weather is beautiful 75 degrees and sunny everyday, you cant ask for much better than that. I went to the La Jolla cove today and went snorkeling, the water in there was a little chilly but I managed. I've been sitting out by the pool a whole lot just relaxing, it is just what I needed. Anyhow just want to let everyone know I am have a great time.

God Bless
Jake

Its been a great week!

Alright sorry I haven't updated lately I have been a pretty busy. First of all I became an uncle last Friday. My sister gave birth to Riley Aaron Jung he was 7lbs 9ounces. I have to say I am pretty excited about it.

Now lets talk about me cause we all know I am pretty good at that. I have been feeling really since Monday I think so I had another quick recovery from chemo. I spent the last week in Fort Worth hanging out just enjoying feeling well again. I met with Dr. B today and not too much was said around the first of Sept we are going to run a series of scans to establish where it the cancer is at meaning if it looks gone or not. He says it will be tough to give a 100% guarantee at first cause it can look gone because of the the scar tissue around it when it gets smaller and smaller, So the scans will only show it if it is over 5mm in size or something like that. Only time will tell for sure but its a great thing gods on our side. After the scans we will formulate a plan according to what the results show. If its still there more chemo possibly? I'm not sure Dr. B is not the best communicator.

I am going on vacation next week to San Diego, I need to get away and relax it will be great. After I get back I moving back to Benbrook so as of the 1st I will have a new address, Ill make sure I post it so everyone will have it. I think Benbrook will be a great place for me at this time of my life to be back in my old home town around so many great friends and and my family.
I think that's about it, I hope everyone is doing great.

God Bless
Jake

Day 2

Day 2 is in the books and not treating me as well as I could have hoped. I am extremely tired and finally found out what it is like to get nauseous from chemo. I never got sick but I think I came close a few times. I set up a new email address it is cartwrightjake@gmail.com feel free t drop me a line so that I can add your email to my new contact list. Anyhow I think I am going to take another nap please continue those prayers so that god will grant me added strength to see me through.

God Bless
Jake

Back at it.

I started what I hope to be is my last chemo treatment. We will have to see how the scans come back in a few weeks to know for sure. I am sure with Gods grace and and my prayer army behind me things will be favorable, and if I for some reason have to have another round I just tough it out. Let me tell you though I am so ready to be done. Today's treatment went well not feeling to bad yet just a little off. Hopefully I rebound as quickly as I did last time. This week is my last week of insurance and am technically not employed anymore. Though I hear from my office often enough and am more than welcome to come back as soon as I am ready. My email has been disconnected and am working on getting a new one so if you have sent me an email in the last week and a half I did not get it. I will post tomorrow and hopefully have a new email to give out. Over the last few weeks I have had alot of time to look back and reflect on the last few months and realized that god was using me a tool and it makes me feel as though having this cancer has be a good thing, well to an extent. For one people tell me what an inspiration I have been to them, hearing that makes me feel so good inside. As long I was able to bring one person closer to god or their family then this has been worth it. Thank goodness I think this has touch a few more people than just one. And also what can ever hold me back now seeing the true power of faith and and having been through this I cant wait to beat this and take on the world next. Everyone have a great day.

God Bless
Jake

Waiting Game

I went to the Dr. today and sat waiting for Dr. B for an hour in the examination room before he graced me with his presence only to tell me that my White Blood counts haven't recovered yet. So therefore I have to wait another week to start what is hopefully my last round of chemo. I am so excited to be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, finally. I am still feeling great and trying not to over exert myself. I hope everyone else is doing great as well.

God Bless
Jake

Like a million bucks!!!

Wow, God has truly blessed me lately. After this last round of chemo I bounced back so much faster then I ever had previously. I only felt bad for about two days after treatment this time which was fine by me. Since then I have felt so good and more like my self than I have since probably February. Even if feeling this good has to go away when I have my next round I thank God for giving me this time to just be my self with not having everything on my mind. Though there is one downfall to feeling this great, its trying to remember that I cant do everything I used to. I mean I am the closest thing to a Greek god that was ever created...but I have to remember not to over do it. I don't want to take a step backward at this point, not with the end in sight. I have had a blast though the past week spending time at home with my Dad and Kevin, then coming back up here and hanging out with my cousin E, which was the first night I felt like ME again, going out and not thinking about the fact that I have cancer and just having fun. I spent the weekend hanging out with my friend Ben swimming a lot which I am so glad I can do again and we also went skeet shooting which was hot but still a lot of fun. Anyhow I just wanted to let everyone know how all our prayers are truly being answered by the big man in the sky, keep'em up and I have no doubt we are going beat this.

God Bless
Jake

Recovery Mode

Round 3 of chemo is over thank goodness. This round was weird, it hit me a lot harder than the last but I managed to keep a little appetite this time. My stomach has been in knots however. I decided to get away for a few a days and came down to my parents since it will probably be the last chance I have before they move. No updates on the cancer front just trying to get back to normal. Hope everyone is well.

God Bless
Jake

Results are in...But Chemo Sucks

Well today was a mix a of good and bad news, the good news is Dr. B made a special visit to see me in the Chemo room with the results of the MRI. I guess he just couldn't wait until Friday. The results didn't conclusively say what it is but that it does not have the same consistencies as cancer, which is just awesome. He does not believe it is a hemangioma anymore but that it is more likely to be a cyst of some sort because it is still so small it is hard to tell, but he seemed very confident that is NOT cancer. He also smiled, the first one of those I have seen from him thus far. The bad news of the day is the I started my third round of chemo today, and it stinks. I am already feeling the effects. I am super tired and loosing my appetite very rapidly. The price I pay to be cured. Let all thank god for this great news because he truly answered our prayers, GOD IS GREAT. I have two more days in this round then a few weeks off before my final chemo treatment in early august, I cant wait. I hope everyone is doing great.

Jake

You gotta love good news!

Well today was maybe the happiest day I have had since this all began. I met with Dr. B today to go over my CT scan results. The man growth of the cancer has shrunk by over 4cm and the second growth is nearly gone. But believe it or not that wasn't even the best news he could have given me. The spot that he saw on my liver has actually increased in size a little, wait don't get worried so fast...because it grew that make it very likely that it is not cancer!!!! Which might means that it didn't spread!!! That increases the likelihood that once the cancer is gone it will stay gone. He previously thought that the spot in my liver was cancer meaning i was in stage 4 which was horrible news cause he could not give me a good prognosis for the future after beating the first time. But now because of all the prayers and hope that everyone has been lifting up to god have just maybe been answered. I am having a MRI on Monday to look at the spot to see if it is a hemangioma or a non serious blood clot. I will find out probably Friday for sure. I am starting round three of chemo next Tuesday which I am dreading because I have been feeling so good lately. Thank you all again for your prayers and support lets pray hard this week for that spot to be a Hemangioma and that would mean great things.

God Bless
Jake

Have a Happy 4th!!

I hope everyone is doing good, I am this is the best have felt since Feb. it probably has a lot to with an extra long break from chemo and radiation being over. But this is the closest I have felt to myself in a long long time and I thank god for that. Too bad next week it will stink again, I am pretty sure I resume chemo next week. I meet with Dr. B to go over my CT scan and I am hoping for great news. I want to thank everyone who came out to the fundraiser on Friday about 20 people came out to see show for me and other that were not there for donated a little as well. I also want to thank those of you have donated to my medical fund it means a lot the support people are showing me. I don't really have anything special planned for tomorrow with all the rain we are having around its kinda tough to plan anything outdoors for fear of the rain. I want to ask a favor of all those praying for me, if you could add my new little cousin Riley he decided to join us a little early and needs some prayers for a quick recovery so he can go home with his mom and dad. Thank you everyone have a great holiday weekend and be safe out there are lots of crazy people out there.

Jake

Radiation OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its almost like Christmas... well OK maybe not but I am one Happy camper today knowing that I do not have to lay under that radiation machine one more day. Everyday I would lay on that table and say a little prayer asking god to give me the strength to put up one more day, each time he answered that prayer and we made it through almost unscathed. I look back and think well it could have been worse I guess. I am happy cause now my life can get a little more back to normal, in a about two weeks maybe less I will get to resume some activities like swimming in a pool rather than my tub. I can spend more time out in sun just have to be cautious not to over heated. I am having a CT scan tomorrow morning to see how much the cancer has shrunk, I wont have the results back until I meet with Dr. B next Friday. I am getting excited about the fundraiser tomorrow night put on by Amphibian. I want to say a special thank you to Kathleen Anderson Culebro the Artistic Director with Amphibian for doing this for me. Remember to to tell them at the ticket window if your going that your there to support me. I hope to see you all there tomorrow. Hope everyone is having a great day.

God Bless
Jake

2 More Days/ Fundraiser

YES! Only 2 more days of radiation I am more excited than you can ever imagine. My skin is doing a lot better after having that week off, thank goodness. It will get a little worse again after this week but Ill take it like a man be done with it. It will be another 2 weeks or so after the radiation till I can partake in any normal summer events like swimming in a pool and stuff like that. That has been tough because my apt. is right next to pool and there is always beautiful scenery out there. I meet with Dr. B tomorrow to find out when my next chemo will be. I wish that part was almost over.

Also, Amphibian Stage Productions, a theatre company in Fort Worth is going to be hosting a fundraiser for me on Friday at their performance of Miss Witherspoon. If you come to the show on Friday night and tell them that you are there to support Jake Cartwright, 25% of the price of your ticket will be donated to the fund. There will also possibly be snacks/concessions for sale with profits also going to my medical fund. Here is the info for the performance:

Amphibian Stage Productions presents Miss Witherspoon Friday, June 29 8:00 pm
The Buschmann Theatre (On the campus of Texas Christian University)
To make reservations:Visit http://www.amphibianproductions.org/ Or call 817-923-3012

There is a good chance that Ill make it there as well so this might be a great chance for those who have never met me or those who haven't seen me for a while to come and see a great show and me too.

If you can’t make it to the show, you may also donate to my fund by going to any Bank of America and depositing a check into the John J. Cartwright Medical Fund. The teller at any Bank of America should be able to pull up the account and deposit your donation. Make sure to tell them it is a contribution/donation fund! And please note: all donations are tax deductible!

You can also mail a check directly to my parents or me, made payable to the John J. Cartwright Medical Fund and we can deposit it for you! Let me know if you would rather go that route and I will be happy to send along our addresses!

Jake

A Week Off/ Donation Account

Once again I fail to update everyone on the latest events and I am sorry. I had radiation on Monday but was so burnt that Dr. Ilahi gave me the rest of this week off to try and let my skin heal. I decided since I had been just sitting around my apt all the time I needed a change of scenery and came down to my parents house in Conroe. I guess its been a week off it seems as though all I am doing is applying more ointment that they gave me and taking treatment baths. I will finish off the last four radiation treatments next week. This break was much needed my skin was in bad shape.
Some very close friends of mine and pretty much a second family to me the McMullin's have set a non-profit account to help me cover my expenses the next few months until I can get back to work. It is not like me to ask for help or money for that matter, I am a very proud person. Though in times of need I am learning to just ask cause there are special people out there willing to lend a hand. The account is set up at Bank Of America, there are two ways to donate.
1) Go to any Bank of America in the US and deposit a check into John J. Cartwright Medical Fund the teller will be able to bring it up, make sure to tell them it is a contribution/donation fund.
2) Mail a check to either my house or my parents made out to John J. Cartwright Medical Fund and we will deposit it.

Jake Cartwright
350 E. Vista Ridge Mall Dr.
apt #111
Lewisville TX. 75067

Johnny and Carolyn Cartwright
317 E. Hunting Tower Run
Montgomery TX 77316

Any donations made will be tax deductible. The money will go to help me cover my medical bills and other bills I have since I am loosing my pay in another week. God has bless each and everyone of with people that will lend a hand in a time of need. Though these trials I have truly learned how much he does bless up. If you have any questions regarding the account or donating please contact me and I will do as I can to answer any questions.

Jake

Weekend report

Just a short little update today since one of my friends Ben got mad at me for not updating enough. I had a nice weekend spent Friday night in at my sisters just hanging out. Saturday I went with my mom and sister to see Aladdin put on by Kids Who Care it was fun watching all the little kids perform. Then went and Hung out with Ryan R. we saw Oceans 13 which I liked then afterward on the way home his car ran out of gas which I found hilarious cause I got to steer and he got to push, Ha Ha it was so funny. Fathers Day was nice as well my dad stayed down in Conroe since he had just returned from a youth mission trip in LA. So I went to Plano which is close to my apt. and hung out with a friend and her family which was very nice and had a lot of fun. I am excited about this being my last week of radiation I can wait for it to be over because my skin is so burnt at hurts so bad its not even funny. It keeps me up a lot and cutting into my sleep time which I hate. I have to put on ice packs to cool down the skin and deaden the area so i can catch a little shuteye. I pray my skin heals fast and get on with beating this thing. I Hope everyone else had a great Fathers Day weekend.

I Love You DAD Happy Fathers Day.

Jake

Rebounding Well...

I am finally turning the corner and feeling alot better now, which excites me because I hate feeling down and not like myself. I met with my radiation oncologist yesterday and have only 6 more radiation treatments YES!!! The radiation is has really starting to get old now that it has really made my skin very uncomfortable, itchy, burning, you name it. Its like the worst sun burn Ive had but where the sun dont shine. I will be very relieved to be done with that part. Other than that not much news. Keep it up all you prayer warriors.

Jake

Holding up OK.

Sorry it has once again taken so long for me to post another. I finished the second round of chemo on Friday as people had warned me each treatment does get a little tough than the last. I'm not really feeling bad but just exhausted which is normal. God is seeing me through it though and helping me rebound quickly. I should be back to feeling alright by next weekend, that's what I'm praying for. Its strange to sleep so much, well maybe not I guess I could sleep this much back in college but that was just to miss class. I am starting to get my appetite back now after the treatments which is quicker than last time so that is huge plus, maybe I wont loose any weight this go round. And to all my old college buddies no I am the 17o pounds of twisted steel and sex appeal any more those were in my heavier days now its closer to 156 pounds of twisted steel. Its the leaner more aerodynamic version. Once again I want to thank everyone for all your prayers and words of encouragement from your emails and comments please keep them coming while I might not update everyday I do check see what people are saying.

Jake

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

Round 2

I started my second round of chemo today. I am feeling good but am already starting a little fatigued from the medicine. Today I was the first patient there and the last to leave 9am to 5:10pm that's one long day. The first day of 3 last so long because of all the added fluid they give me. I am glad tomorrow and Friday will be much shorter just half days in chemo. I am hoping things work out for me like last time and am only down for a few days before I rally and come back. I'm sure god will be there to see me through these rough next couple days and help me to recover quickly. I will post a pick of the bald head as soon as I can get my hands on a digital camera, so give me a few days. Hope everyone is well and having a great day!

Jake

The blog is back

Sorry its been a few days since I posted I just started feeling as though I was saying the same things over and over. I have decided I will post a few time a week but probably not everyday unless I have something to say. I am still feeling good and ready beat this. I half way done with the radiation side of the treatment, which I am thrilled about. I should be starting round two of chemo on Wed. as long as my white blood cell counts have gone back up. I hope I am only down a few days afterwards like last time then am back to my old self that would be great. My hair finally started to fall out so I went to the barber and had them shave it bald for me. I still look good bald though. Not much else to say but thank you all for your continued support and prayers.

Jake

Another day in Radiation Land.

Another day down. I cant wait another 3.5 weeks and no more radiation. Its not that it hurts or anything but its so boring and makes my skin uncomfortable. I did meet with my Radiation Oncologist Dr. Ilahi today and she said based on some one my observations the treatments are doing their job so far, and that my skin is actually holding up rather well. Sorry I posted so late today I went and saw the new Pirates movie, it was ok. I am just enjoying getting out and doing stuff while I am still feeling good enough. Hope everyone is had a great day.

Jake

Feelin Good!!

I hope everyone had a great memorial day weekend. I did it was great. I spent a lot of time with family and friends. Found out my sister is having a BOY she is due mid Aug. I was hoping for a boy. Saw my uncle Larry who drove in from Georgia. Went to my cousin Mel's high school graduation. Went and watched the Rangers loose to the Red Sox's with Ryan R. and his pops. Had lunch on Memorial day with the Shuck's. It was a lot of fun to get out be and active again. I have been feeling really good the last week now, makes me not want to go back to chemo, but I'm just hoping it doesn't keep me down to long. No new news on the cancer front really nothing from the doctors. I have radiation all this week then next week I have another round of chemo. I am starting to feel the effects of the radiation which is like a bad sunburn in the treatment area and dry itchy skin, no fun let me tell you. That's it for today hope everyone is well.

Jake

Cant wait till the weekend

Thursday is in the books radiation is going well, man its boring though. I hate laying there not moving. One more day to go till the weekend which I am excited about. Tomorrow I meet with Dr. B and have radiation then a nice long weekend. We are hopefully finding out the gender of my sister Sarah and brother-in-law Chad's baby this weekend, she is due in middle august and I cant wait to know. I am feeling pretty darn well considering this is the time, 10 day after chemo, when my blood counts would be at their lowest but I have progressively been feeling better day to day. My fatigue is getting better too as well. Which make me very happy proves how our prayers are working (I love the power of prayer) keep em up people. I should be in Fort Worth most of the weekend so give me a ring if anyone might want to meet up for a short while. Oh and whats the deal here people I have only received one response from someone with a beautiful daughter, and I thank you for your response but yes I agree we wait until she graduates from college in 12 or so years.

Jake

Today is a good day

Today finds me feeling better than I have in a while. Slept in got up went to radiation met with the radiation oncologist and she is much more optimistic about the spot in my liver than the medical oncologist who is leading my treatments. Which was nice to hear she never said it was cancer but she she didn't say she though it was either I like her thinking. Anyhow two more treatment this week and meet with Dr. B my oncologist on Friday hopefully my blood counts are goods. That's what I am looking forward to. Its getting boring sitting around all day watching TV and surfing the net. Hopefully I can find something worthwhile to entertain myself. Well that's it for today I hope this finds everyone well.

Jake

Running out of titles

Again there is not much to say but that I went to radiation today and it went well. I am begining to feel alot better, still tired alot but my appitite is definitly coming back which is nice but I am even pickier now than before if thats even imaginable. But my tastes are changing and when something sounds good I only want that. My work called today and said they are putting me on disability. So that means I'm not working for a while. I wish I had a little more time to have gotten back in there but I guess they felt I had been out enough to justify it no hard feeling though, I love my job. I will get 60% of my salary and full benefits for the next six week and then just full benefits for the following 6 weeks so after 12 weeks I have to rely on God to provide for me , so in my next prayer I am hoping for the winning lotto numbers. My treatments should last about 4 months so there will be a short time Ill have to figure things out. Anyhow it sucks that it happened but I'm sure through god things will work out. Oh I will have a job there when all this is said and done, so don't look at it like I got laid off just going on a leave of absence. I realized through a comment yesterday or today that many of you are praying so hard for me yet have no clue who I am. As per request I am attaching some pictures of me and with some of my close friends so you have a face to go with the name. Hope everyone is having a great day.

PS: I am single, so if you are or have a beautiful daughter in the age group 21-27 and doesn't mind that I have a cancer give me a shout. Only I would put that out there, but hey who knows. HAHA

Jake

And so week two begins

Week two of treatments is upon us nothing really new to report. Spent the weekend with the family which was nice. My cousin Ethan stopped by to hang out for while too. I'm still tired alot which is to be expected I guess when dealing with chemo. I have radiation every day this week but no chemo treatments. Not much else going on just wanting to have a little energy to maybe get a little more active. Keep up the prayers you all doing great in that I'm sure.

Jake

Another wall to get climb.

Went to the oncologist today and didn't exactly get the news we were hoping for. In the PET results it shows that the cancer has more than likely spread to liver. Meaning it is in stage 4. They aren't 100% sure it is cancer but they believe it is. I will keep my fingers crossed. What does this mean? I am just going to have fight harder than I even could have imagined. The way this will all progress is that through the current treatment the cancer will go away but since it made it way out of the rectum already it will more than likely come back at some point. The thing is though they know nothing about my type of cancer being that is so rare. They can only compare it small cell cancer of the lungs but they differ alot and it makes it tough listening to a prognoses from one form of cancer to another that they don't know about. So that was a bit confusing but the way I am trying to look at is that if they don't know then nobody knows what will happen so with the power of god and every ones prayers lets make our own prognoses. That of our faith in Jesus Christ that he can do anything as long as we walk in his path, so lets believe that through him he will grant me the strength and knowledge to the doctors to knock this thing out. These are tough things to tell people and there is no easy way to do it one thing I ask of you is don't say how sorry you are for me because god has his plans and I am still trying to figure what that is and I will. Try to take something from the trials I am going to better yourself or relationship with those close to and most of God he will be the one to lead us though this. I don't think I have fully grasped the magnitude but I'm strong in mind and body and will not give up I give you all my word on that.

Jake

Rockin and Rollin

Things are moving along pretty well, finished the first round of chemo today. I'm holding up pretty well not much nausea just really fatigued i guess if I had my choice I am glad I'm only tired. I meet with my oncologist tomorrow to go over the PET results so everyone say a big prayer tonight that it didn't spread. Not much more update today tune in tomorrow for the much awaited PET results.

Jake

Trying to beat this thing!

Well day two is in the books. I went to work for a few hours today but left just feeling really tired, though only feeling slightly weird in the stomach. I slept for a whole night for the first time in more than month last night. I think it had alot to do with finally just relaxing that we are moving forward on this we finally be proactive in beating this. Then to get a few more hours of sleep before treatment was nice too. My chemo nurse was shocked to see how well I feeling in regards to the nausea usually associated with one of my chemo drugs. She said most people generally feel horrible after the first treatment but she said I am true fighter and had no doubt I would handle the treatment well. That made me feel real good about this things, I mean I had all the confidence already but to hear that from her was comforting. I have one more round of chemo tomorrow then I get a few weeks off from that, but continue on with the radiation daily. I am just so glad to truly fighting this now and I know through the Power of God and all your prayers I will be better in no time. Thank You once again for all uplifting words of encouragement.

Jake

Day 1 Down

The first day of many is in the books. It was a long long day got there for my scan at 6:45 got the glucose dye injected waited for it to take effect then got in the machine and was done with that around 8:30. I then sat around the waiting room eating my awesome breakfast of doughnut holes, kolaches, and Gatorade till the Dr.s show up the nurses can administer the drugs. Got to the treatment room around 9:10 got a brief rundown of everything before getting hooked up. The nurses were a little aggravated I had not had a chemo class because I was rushed though the system. The nurses just want every to be educated about the process. I was pumped full of fluids like I have never been before. Lets just say right now I am VERY hydrated. A good friend of mine brought me lunch today and sat with me for a while it was nice. Shortly after lunch I had my first Radiation treatment. IT was about 45 min nothing too bad. Then it was back to chemo for more drugs and fluids. I finally got out there around 4:15 the next two days will be much short than today. I feel pretty good no side effects yet, they say those usually doesn't hit until week or so after once your blood counts get altered. But I confident as long as I stay on top of it with my med I will hold up like a CHAMPION its my goal to get through this living as normally as possible and I know that will take a strong mindset. That was my eventful day.

Jake

It all begins tomorrow!!!

Tomorrow is the big day I am ready to get after it I am tired of feeling this way and its time to fight back. I worked my first full day in a while and it was nice to feel productive on that front. After work I went to dinner with a lot of my coworkers at Outback since I am on strict diet tonight before my PET scan first thing tomorrow. I can basically only eat high protein food with no sugar and carbs. So I had a great steak. Tomorrow is going to be one long day i have to be at the treatment center at 6:45 and have no clue when I get out. But I bought myself a video iPod so im sure i can stay occupied. I am pretty worn out its been a long day and another tomorrow, so pray for me now and god willing give me the strength to beat this into remission quickly.

Jake

Down to the Nitty Gritty

We are down to the point of no return. The soreness with mediport is going away now. That's a plus. The new bed was just amazing and I slept great. Today met with my Oncologist Dr. B and I starting both radiation and Chemo on Tuesday right after my PET Scan. It is going to last all day long. Then I will have two shorter chemo sessions the following two days. I am so ready to start fighting this instead of talking about it. Just ready to get after keep up your prayers cause I'm going to need them more now going through treatment. Take care have a great weekend tune back in on Monday for the newest updates.

Jake

Medi-port is in

Man alive no one told be they hack into you neck not just your chest to put this dang thing in. I kinda freaked me out the hear they were going to be cutting into my neck to attach this thing to a big vein. But its in and now im sore but that should only last a few days. Tomorrow like I said IM meeting with the Oncologist then maybe finishing the preplanning for the radiation to start that on monday. I got a new bed today and its awsome so hopefully maybe I might sleep a little for once. The guy at matress giant cut us a huge deal...just tell people you have cancer and they will hook it up try it some time...just kidding. But that was very nice of him to do that and I am very thankful. Anyhow not much left to say check back tomorrow cause I should have some updated as to chemo treatments and such.

Jake

PET SCAN is scheduled... Finally

Well tomorrow really kicks things off I guess. I have the medport put in tomorrow morning. Meet with the Oncologist friday morning to go over the chemo. Then next tuesday is the all so important PET Scan which will tell us the extent of the cancer. I am going to cut today short Im really tired and dont want to type. I am so glad to finally have everything moving so I can start my treatment and beat this thing.

Jake

My back is hurtin

I had to take the day off today my back was killing me. I was up all night with spasms. Its due to sitting with the pain in my bum and having horrible posture because of it. But kept the heating pad on it day and medicated so I'm a little feeling better now. I am going to work go back to work tomorrow but not push it to hard. I heard from my doctor today and I am scheduled to have my medi-port put in Thursday morning. I it a basically an injection site that will implanted in my chest/shoulder area so I don't have to get an IV every time I have chemo. Then I will meet with the oncologist on Friday to go over the chemo treatment more in depth. I also think I am starting my radiation on Monday but that is not confirmed. That's it for now.

Later

Jake

Start of a new week

Welcome back I hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine was nice got to see the family and went to church with them too. It was nice to see the level of prayer going on for meat my church it was really nice. I should have my PET scan this week just as soon as my insurance comes through. Then I think radiation is starting next monday. I am so ready to get after this and get going and beat it. I have been pretty tired since returning to work, its tough for me to sit for a long period of time so I think that is wearing on me but my great work is looking into getting me a chair that will be more supportive of my needs. Also I havent been able to sleep that well I wake up alot during the night, not fun. Man alive I need to quit complaining, ah well maybe Im entitled to a little here and there. Anyhow its rest time if im going to work tomorrow.

God Bless Ya!

Jake

A Day Off

Today I had a much needed day off. Well kinda. I didnt have any Dr. appointments or tests for what seems like quite a while. I guess I better just used to it. I did however spend my first full day at work in a while. It was nice to be back and working, but I have to admit it wore me out a little. But i guess i have to look at it like i need to get used to being a little tired and just working through it cause its only going to get tougher from here. So the quicker I just buck it up and deal with being tired the better off ill be. Any how no real news today just going to take the weekend off, relax and rest up. Hopefully I will find out monday when I will have my PET Scan the only test we are waiting on and the most important. Thats the one that will tell us IF and how far it has spead. Ill keep eveyone updated.

Have a great weekend!

Jake

More Tests

Today finds me well. I had two tests today my bone scan and an mri of my brain. Both were pretty boring lots of laying around not moving, so you would think it wouldnt be that tiring but my goodness it is tough to stay still. Im not sure what the bone scan is for but the MRI was to take a look at my brain, they probably didnt see anything, HAHA. That was my bad attempt at being funny. It was to see if the cancer had gone into the brain just a precautionary thing. All this activity the last two days has made me a little tired but its a good tired. I am so glad to be out doing stuff and not just sitting around. The pain medicine has treated me well allowing me to get back to a more normal life. Alot of people have been saying how sorry they are that I have gotten this cancer and that its not fair. But you know what I think its not about being sorry Im not. I wouldnt have wished this on or wanted anyone else to have to deal with this, there is a reason I have gotten it and we just have to wait until god reveals his reasons why. There is lesson I am supposed to learn I figure or to make me abetter person somehow for having to go through this. So look at it like I am, figure out how this touches you and how we will all be better for it in the long run, I know its tough in the face of adversity but we will all come out of this better people and stronger in our faith when the big guy rids me if this cancer.

Have a great day!

Jake

Radiation Planning

Well another good day in the world of Jake. Before I start updating I want to take minute and thank each and every person who has read this Blog and is praying for me, that is what is going to get me through this, well that and my never give up attitude. Today I had the preplanning for my radiation. Which consists of running a shorter version of the treatment in order to make sure they know exactly where they want the radiation hit. Then they put three little tatoos on you line you up in the future. I have to admit having that needle poked into my belly not fun. So now I have these three little reminders of this ordeal. Well I knew I wanted another tatoo so I guess I got my wish huh. I went back to work today and that was great just getting back to normal. I was worn out at the end of the day but I figure I am just going to have to get used to that. I have more test to tomorrow so check back then and ill let you know how those went.

Thanks again for the prayers and all the support

Jake

I Have Cancer

I am creating this blog as way to allow people to keep up with what is going on through out my treatment. I figure this will be easier than trying to remember to call and keep everyone updated all the time. Just to refresh everyone or inform those who havent heard, I was diagnosed with Small Cell cancer of the rectum, yeah not a fun place to have cancer. I am going to be very frank and up front in this and not sugar coat it, so for the faint of heart beware. Small cell cancer is a very fast growing form of cancer that must be caught early for a better chance of starting treating before it spreads. We are still not sure if it has spread outside the rectum/colon I will find that out after a few more test this week. This is an inoperable cancer and can only be treated through chemotherapy and radiation treatment, which will be starting as soon as we run a few more tests. Not too much is known about this type of cancer associated with the rectum so they give a 30-40% chance of complete recovery but i dont think this applies to me because I am JAKE and so I put my odds around 90%. I have decided to stay here in dallas and recieve my treatments up here and continue to work as long as I can. I want to keep thing as normal as possible and not let it get me down and it hasnt I am problably taking the news better than anyone else who has heard it so far. I am just ready to get the treatment started and get better.
Stay tuned I will try and update regularly. I know eveyone is there for me if need you but for now just pray for me and a fast recovery. Please feel free to leave comments or email me at jjc003@shsu.edu, i would give yall my work email but ill be in and out so much i dont want to miss them.

Jake